Waiting on God


What a lovely, ugly word. It’s a virtue. It’s a fruit of the Spirit. It’s important. And often, it is the bane of my existence.

In a world of instant coffee, news, and information, we don’t often have to wait on anything. Living in Germany, Chris and I learned the meaning of patience waiting for the next tram or bus. Ten minutes of standing there.

Just waiting.

We thought we were going to die.

Then, we got more and more used to it. We enjoyed those moments of pause in the day, when we could stop and smell the roses. (Literally. There are flowers by our tram stop.)

Little test of patience in life are sometimes troublesome, but often quickly overcome. Then, there are the big, huge, in your face tests of patience.

As many of you know, Chris and I are making quite a big, life-changing decision right now. We have sought all the advice of every person willing to give it. (There were many.) We considered all the evidence. And, then, we got on our knees and banged on the door of Heaven. We prayed our hearts out. We prayed and prayed and begged and prayed. And do you know what we heard:

Wait on Me.

Over and over again. Wait on Me.

I would start prayer like- But, God, we need an answer. But, God, this. But, God, what about that?

Every time the answer was the same- Wait on Me.

Patience. God was asking me to have patience and wait on His timing. The audacity. Doesn’t He know how valuable my time is? Doesn’t He know that I have to make plans? And even more so, there are more people involved in this decision than just me! Doesn’t  He know those people need an answer?

But in my heart, I knew. It wasn’t their decision. It wasn’t my decision. It was His decision. He knew the next step to take, when we were supposed to take it, and where it would lead us. And more importantly, He knew when He should tell us.

So, we waited. We told the voices of the world to be quiet. We told everyone that this decision was not about us, but something bigger than us. And we waited. And waited. The voices were not silent. They tried to be encouraging, then became critical, then became frustrated, then became critical again.

Then, for just a moment, we let doubt creep in. It was only for a little, tiny second.

It was enough.

“….and do not give the devil a foothold.”  Ephesians 4:27

The devil had a foothold and doubt turned into stress. Stress turned into depression. And depression infected us.

But, we kept praying. Soon, the depression lifted and can you guess what happened?

God was faithful.

We don’t have all the answers and we still don’t know for sure everything the future holds. But, He is opening doors in places that we could have never opened them ourselves. He is revealing things to us that we know are direction from Him. He is confirming our diligence in making a wise decision and waiting on His counsel. He’s coming through.

And we are looking back thinking- how could we have ever doubted?

He is so worth the wait.

But those who wait on the Lord
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint.
Isaiah 40:31


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Vegan Lemon Scone Cookies Recipe


I know that many of you were big fans of Krista’s Kitchen! I haven’t shut the site down, but instead have decided to combine it with this blog, just to keep everything in one place.

Since moving to Germany, Chris and I have really learned a thing or two about cooking. We had to get used to what we would see in grocery stores here. We can get a lot of things but sometimes it so expensive or its a trip all the way across town for one bag of something or one can of something else. Because of this, we have really been exploring new recipes, making things from scratch and nutrition. Somehow, this little recipe has become a huge hit!

Before these cookies, we never really had our thing. People would say…oh Ed and Courtney used to bring this or Clint and April used to bring this and don’t you remember when Roy and Tiffany. (Those were some of the HIM workers in Chemnitz before us.) We always brought the vegetable tray. We didn’t have a thing and we didn’t really want a thing. But, we had been trying our had at a vegan lifestyle and Chris found this recipe on The Sweet Life. We wanted to show some skeptics that vegan food can also be delicious. (It doesn’t just mean tofu!) And what do you know?

This recipe became our thing!

Everyone asks for the recipe all the time. So, go ahead! Try it. But, I have to say that no one makes them quite as good as Chris. I don’t know what his secret is!

We didn’t do much adjusting because they were perfect, just they way they were. And if you don’t tell, no one would even know they are vegan! I changed the name to Lemon Scone Cookies, because mine turned out a little fluffier and reminded me of scones! Enjoy!

The original recipe is from The Sweet Life.

Lemon Scone Cookies

1 1/2 cup all-purpose flour
1 1/2 tsp baking powder
1/4 tsp salt
3/4 cup granulated sugar
zest of 1 large lemon (about 1 heaping tbsp)
1/2 cup plant butter
1/4 cup apple sauce
2 tbsp freshly squeezed lemon juice
1 tsp vanilla extract

1/2 cup powdered sugar

1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F. Line 2 baking sheets with parchment paper or a silicone baking mat.

2. Mix together flour, baking powder, and salt.

3. Using a mixer, beat together sugar, lemon zest, and plant butter on medium speed until light and fluffy.

4. Add apple sauce, lemon juice, and vanilla extract. Mix until fully combined.

5. Mix wet ingredients with the dry ingredients. (You can use a mixer on this part, but I chose not to, in order to avoid overmixing.)

6. Bake cookies for 10-12 minutes until edges are firm. The cookies will be light in color and I cooked them until they were a little brown.

7. Remove from oven and sprinkle with powdered sugar. Transfer to a wire cooling rack to allow cookies to cool completely. Store in an airtight container.


This recicpe will also be translated and featured in our upcoming cookbook fundraiser. We are creating a cookbook to raise money for our new church building in Chemnitz! Stay tuned for more information!

Yellow Fields and a free download

I have a very particular view of what Heaven will be like. Chris says my view of Heaven can’t really exist, because it includes the ocean, and the snowy mountains, and the yellow fields. So, maybe my view of Heaven is really what I already have- just without disease and tears and pain. Nothing but the warm sunshine, hot chocolate, and the view of dolphins playing in the distance.

If you read my Germany Bucket List , you now know that Item #1 is officially complete! Here are the pictures:



But, I didn’t set out to just take a picture of the yellow fields. My goal was to take the perfect picture of the yellow fields. And I succeeded! This in my opinion is the perfect picture of the yellow fields and my idea of Heaven:



By request, I also created a downloadable desktop background of one of my favorite pictures of the yellow fields. Enjoy!



Yellow Fields Desktop Background


German Culture: The Mice Will Dance on the Table (Phrases)

One of the best things about learning a new language is learning phrases. Learning a culture’s phrases or saying really gives you an insider’s perspective to the people and the culture. Since Chris is out of town, I thought it would be appropriate to share my favorite German phrase that I just recently learned.

In English, we say:

When the cat’s away, the mice will play.

In German, they say:

Wenn die Katze aus dem Haus ist, tanzen die Mäuse auf dem Tisch.

When the cat’s out of the house, the mice will dance on the table.


I love this phrase for so many reasons, not the least of which being that I am definitely guilty of dancing around my house to loud music, when Chris is gone. (Okay, its not so loud because we are in Germany and I do when Chris is home, as well.)

As I said before, phrases and sayings, give you a peek into the culture. Ironically, in my opinion, this is not very descriptive of German culture. Germans love holidays and celebrating, but I don’t imagine peeking into the window of a German and seeing them dancing around their house to loud music, while their spouse (or roommate or kids) are away.

But, this phrase makes me think that I may be wrong about Germans. Germans do follow proper decorum in order to maintain their public face, but clearly what goes on behind closed doors is a little less proper and just another reminder, that once you break past the outer German shell, there are some crazy cool people waiting to be known.

I personally think we should adopt this phrase in America. Its much more representative of our culture than the phrase we currently use.
Who’s with me?

What phrases do we use that you think describe Americans?

Oklahoma, you are not alone.

As an aspiring and self-titled up and coming blogger, I felt the pressure today to give a profound response to the tragedy in Oklahoma, the state Chris and I used to call home.

It seems like today everyone is searching for the right words- words of comfort, words of hope, words of explanation. If only words could turn back time, or stop a tornado.

If only words could mend a broken heart or save a life or find a missing family member.

But they can’t. And only hours after the tragedy, words feel superficial and not enough.

When this world fails us, when everything we have known to be real and safe and true is literally shattered in a matter of minutes, what words could there possibly be?

Yet, its these words, these offerings of hope that remind us that we are human. And more importantly, that we are not alone.

Today, we turn to social media and the internet, and we see it flooded with people writing messages of hope. People who are far away and feel helpless to give aid and yet are falling on their knees in prayer. These words will be enough. And God is listening.

However, because my words are nowhere near good enough or wise enough, I offer you these words. They have offered me comfort in times of hopelessness and they are as true today, as they were 2000 years ago.


I have told you these things so that in me you may have peace. In the world, you will have tribulation. But take heart! For I have overcome the world. John 16:33

Oklahoma, you are not alone.

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Die Rote Fade die Liebe

As the most of you saw on Facebook, I gave my second sermon, in German, recently. Thank you for all of your prayers and support. Getting to preach in German has been an incredible experience for me and I am learning so much through doing it. A big thank you to Sven for proofreading, correcting and helping with some “complicated” grammar.

English Translation follows the German.

Die Rote Fade die Liebe- Dresden 12.05.13

Ich war einmal auf dem Weihnachtsmarkt hier in Dresden. An diesem Tag war es
kalt, naß, und grau. Überall waren alle Straßen voll mit Leuten.Ich wurde den ganzen
Tag gestoßen, getreten, geschoben und natürlich am Ende hatte ich schlechte

Als wir in die Strassenbahn eingestiegen sind, habe ich zufällig eine Frau mit meinen
Rücksack gestoßen. Sie hat mich mit zornigen Augen angeguckt und ich hab in
meinen Kopf gedacht, ,,Naja, du wirst kein Entschuldigung von mir bekommen. Ich
wurde auch gestoßen und geschoben, niemand anders hat zu mir ,,Entschuldigung”
gesagt. Warum soll ich denn? Es gibt viele Leute hier, es passiert einfach.”

Sie ist dann in der Straßenbahn weiter vor gegangen. Aber als wir durch die erste
Haltestelle gefahren sind, ist sie wieder gekommen und hat mich nach meinem
Fahrschein gefragt. Sie war eine Kontrolleurin. Plotzlich bemerke ich dass ich in
meinen Ärger über diesen Vorfall meinen Fahrschein nicht gestempelt habe. Mein
Fahrschein war ungültig. Sie hat kein andere Person gefragt, nur mich.

Zum Glück war Kendra dabei und hat mit der Frau gesprochen und sie überzeugt mir
kein Strafe zu geben.

Nach diesen Vorfall schossen mir ein paar Gedanken durch den Kopf. Erstens egal
was passiert, die erste Aufgabe beim Einsteigen in Bus oder Bahn ist den
Fahrschein zu stempeln.

Zweitens, und überhaupt wichtiger, was würde passieren wenn ich Entschuldigung
gesagt hätte. Hätte sie mir trotzdem die Strafe geben wollen. Vielleicht, vielleicht
nicht. Egal, Tatsache ist dass es meine Schuld war. Ich hab sie gestoßen. Und die
Ursache meiner schlechten Laune waren andere Leute, nicht dieser Frau. Ich sollte
,,Entschuldigung sagen.” Ich dachte niemand anderes hat sich entschuldigt, dann
muss ich auch nicht. Aber das ist Falsch. Ich hatte diese Situation in falsch
gesehen. Ich muss anders denken.

Am Anfang der Lehre Jesu, Er lehrte eine Menschenmenge auf einem Berg. Wir
finden diese Lehre in Matthäus 5-7 und Lukas 6. Wir nennen das ,,Der Bergpredigt.”
Am Ende dieser Predigt, glaube ich dass viele Leute sogar die Jünger den
selber Gedanken hatten–Ich muss anderes denken oder?

Sie hatten gerade gehört dass nicht nur ihre Taten wichtig waren sondern auch wo
ihre Herzen liegen. Es war nicht nur dass sie nicht Töten sollten sondern auch nicht
Zornig auf jemand sein sollten. Nicht nur die Ehe nicht brechen sondern auch nicht auf jemand mit voller Begierde sehen. Sie sollen auch für ihre Feinde beten und demjenigen die uns verletzen wollen, guttes tun.

Diese Lehre war neu und anders. Es war auf dem ersten Blick entgegen jeder Logik.
Sie nimmt was die Leute schon gelernt haben und dreht es um.

Zwei Punkte kommen immer vor, hier in der Bergpredigt und in anderen
Gleichnissen. Sie sind dass Gott uns liebt und dass wir unsere nächsten lieben
sollen. Liebe ist der Rote Faden der durch seine ganze Lehre geht und verbindet

Jesus sagte in Matthäus 7, 7-12

<7 Bittet, so wird euch gegeben, suchet so werdet ihr finden, klopfet an, so wird euch
aufgetan. 8 Denn wer da bittet, der empfängt, und wer da sucht, der findet, und wer
da anklopft, dem wir aufgetan. 9 Wer ist unter euch Menschen, der seinem Sohn,
wenn er ihn bittet um Brot, einen Stein biete? 10 Oder, wenn er ihn bittet um einen
Fisch, eine Schlange biete? 11 Wenn nun ihr, die ihr doch böse seid, dennoch euren
Kindern gute Gaben geben könnt, wie viel mehr wird euer Vater im Himmel Gutes
geben denen die ihn bitten! 12 Alles nun, was ihr wollt, dass euch die Leute tun
sollen, das tut ihnen auch! Das ist das Gesetz und die Propheten.>

Gott liebt uns wie ein Vater sein Kind liebt. Er hört unsere Gebete und ist immer
bereit uns zu helfen. Er sorgt für uns und weiß genau was wir brauchen. Er sagte das wir, obwohl wir Sünder (diese Übersetzungen sagten ,,Böse”) sind verstehen was Gut ist und unseren Kinder Gutes tun.

Denn Gott, der Perfekt und allein Gut, bestimmt weiß was wir brauchen Tag zu Tag.
Aus diesem Grund, sollen wir mit anderen so umgehen, wie wir wollen dass die
anderen mit uns umgehen.

Dieser Satz ist bekannt als ,,Die Goldene Regel.” Lasst sie mich nochmal lesen

<Alles nun, was ihr wollt, dass euch die Leute tun sollen, das tut ihnen auch! Das ist
das Gesetz und die Propheten.>

Wenn wir genau hinschauen, sehen wir dass es nicht darum geht wie uns die
anderen tatsächlich behandeln, sondern wie wir es uns von ihnen wünschen.

WENN WIR GENAU hinschauen, sehen wir dass es nicht darum geht wie uns die
anderen tatsächlich behandeln, sondern wie wir es uns von ihnen wünschen.

Es geht darum wie ich auf eine Situation reagieren. Was ich tue. Es bedeutet dass
ich für die bete, die mich verletzen. Es bedeutet das ich ihre Gefühle und ihr
Wohlergehen vor meine Gefühle und mein Wohlergehen stelle.

Später, als Jesus nach dem größten Gebot gefragt wurde, anwortete Er in Markus
12, 31

<…du sollst den Herrn, deinen Gott, lieben von ganzen Herzen, von ganzer
Seele, von ganzem Gemüt und von allendeinen Kräften. Das andere ist dies Du
sollst deinen Nächsten lieben wir dich selbst. Es ist kein anderes Gebot größer als

Wir sollen Gott lieben mit allem wir sind und wir sollen unseren Nachbarn genauso
lieben. Wenn wir unseren Nächste so sehr lieben dann befolgen wir automatisch die
Goldene Regel.
So wir wissen jetzt dass wir einander lieben sollen. Aber was ist denn die Liebe.
Paulus beschreibt die Liebe in 1 Korinther 13…

<Wenn ich in den Sprachen der Welt oder mit Engelszungen reden könnte, aber
keine Liebe hätte, wäre mein Reden nur sinnloser Lärm wir ein dröhnender Gong
oder eine klingende Schelle. 2 Wenn ich die Gabe der Prophetie hätte und wüsste
alle Geheimnisse und hätte jede Erkenntnis und wenn ich einen Glaube hätte der
Berge versetzen könnte, aber keine Liebe hätte, so wäre ich nichts. 3 Wenn ich
alles, was ich besitze, den Armen geben und sogar meinen Körper opfern würde,
damit ich geehrt würde, aber keine Liebe hätte, wäre alles wertlos.>

Die Gemeinde in Korinth, an die Paulus schreibt, war sehr zersplittet. Die
Geschwister dort waren sehr gesegnet mit Geistlichen Gaben aber sie hatten sie
benutzt um sie sich selbst Ehre zu geben statt Gott. Sie auf sich stolz waren und
wollen nicht ein ander dienen sondern alle anderen niedriger zu machen.

Paulus schreib dass ohne liebe diesen Gaben wertlos sind. Alles was wir haben
und tun muss aus der Liebe kommen.

Dann sagt uns Paulus was Liebe ist.

<4 Die Liebe ist geduldig und freundlich, Sie ist nicht neidisch oder überheblich, stolz
5 oder anstößig. Die Liebe ist nicht selbstsüchtig. Sie lässt sich nicht reizen, und

wenn man ihr Böses tut, trägt sie es nicht nach. 6 Sie freut sich niemals über
Unrechtigkeit, sondern sie freut sich immer in der Wahrheit. 7 Die Liebe erträgt alles,
verliert nie den Glauben, bewahrt stets die Hoffnung und bleibt bestehen, was aus
geschieht. 8 Die Liebe wird niemals aufhören.>

Wenn wir diesr Beschreibung zusammen mit der ,,Goldene Regel” betrachten,
dann frage ich mich über meine Beziehungen. Liebe ich wirklich meinen nächsten?

Ich möchte dass Leute geduldig mit mir sind. Zeige ich Geduld?
Ich möchte dass Leute Freundlich sind. Bin ich freundlich? Ich möchte dass Leute
mit meine Fehler nicht vorhalten, halte ich anderen ihre Fehler vor?

Wir haben diese Worte oft gehört. Die meisten hier wissen das. Aber es ist auch
etwas dass wir, als Menschen, häufig vergessen. Manchmal lassen wir den Stress
und Druck unseres Lebens, an dieser Wahrheit drehen. Wir denken dass ich ihnen
tue was sie zu mir getan haben.

Ich soll diese Worter täglich lesen um mich zu erinnern. Vielleicht, wenn wir nichts
anders tun, sollen wir dies täglich lessen damit wir uns erinnern wie und warum wir
unsere Nächsten lieben sollen. Es ist der einzige Weg das wir in der Gemeinde
leben dürfen.

Wir wurden in verschiedene Familien hinein geboren, in verschiedenen Ländern, in
verschiedenen Städten, zu verschiedenen Zeiten. Wir wurde alle von Gott
geschaffen in seinem Bild. Wir alle haben Fehler gemacht, gegen Gott gesündigt.
Wir brauchen Gnade und Vergebung. Wir sind alle gleich.

Jesus ist für uns gestorben. Nicht weil wir etwas für ihn getan haben, Nicht weil wir
es verdienen haben. Nicht weil wir gute Menschen sind. Er ist für uns gestorben
weil er uns sehr liebt. Wir gehören zu ihm. Wir sind des Vaters Schöpfung.
Wir sollen dann einander genauso lieben, Wir sollen Liebe zeigen die einander
behütet und sorgt, die einander Mut macht und niemals aufhört. Wir sind alle
Geschwister, eine Familie.

English Translation

I was at the Christmas Market in Dresden 2 year ago. This day was cold and wet and gray and the streets were full of people. The entire day I was tripped, shoved and pushed and by the end of the day I was in a bad mood. When I boarded the streetcar, I accidentally bumped into a women with my backpack and she shot me a angry glance. It made me angry and I thought to myself, “You will not get an apology form me, I was also pushed and tripped today. there are many people it happens.” As I thought the she went a little further in the train and waited As we passed the first Stop, she turned around, marched up to me and asked for my ticket. She was a controller. It was at this moment that I realized my ticket is not stamped. In my anger I simply forgot to stamp my ticket. Luckily Kendra was there and was able to talk her out of giving me a fine for riding on an unstamped ticket.

After this incident a few thoughts passed through my head. First always, always punch your ticket first thing when you enter a train. Second and more importantly, what would have happened if I had apologized . Would she have still checked my ticket, Maybe Maybe not. But I realized I should have apologized. I did bump into her. I thought because no one else apologized I didn’t have too either. But that is not right. I realized that what I had seen this situation in the wrong way. I need to think differently.

Sermon on the Mount
In the beginning of Jesus’ Ministry he taught a large group of people he taught a large group of people on the side of a Mountain. These teaching can be found in Matt 5-7 and Luke 6. At the end of his teaching I am pretty sure that many people, including the disciples had the same thought: I need to change the way I think.

They had just heard Jesus introduce ideas like: “You shouldn’t just no kill but you should not have anger in your heart. You all know that you should not commit adultery but I [Jesus] tell you that if you look at someone with lust you have already done it. You should pray for enemies, and do good to those who try to hurt you.”

What he was teaching was different, it was turning everything they had been taught upside down. It defied common sense and logic. It taught that not only what you do is important but also where your heart is.

Two points are emphasized here and in other parables and they are:God loves you, and we should love those around us. Love is the core that weaves through all his teachings.

God’s love for us
Jesus tells us in Matt 7:7-12.
7 “Keep asking, and it will be given to you. Keep searching, and you will find. Keep knocking, and the door will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks receives, and the one who searches finds, and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened. 9 What man among you, if his son asks him for bread, will give him a stone? 10 Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11 If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good things to those who ask Him! 12 Therefore, whatever you want others to do for you, do also the same for them—this is the Law and the Prophets.

He tells us that our God is our Father, and loves us like a child he know what we need. Even though we are sinners (“evil”), we understand understand how to give what is good and right how much more than does God care about and now what we need.

Then God, who alone is perfect and good, knows exactly what we need day to day. For this reason we should love other is because God first loved us. This is the love that God showed us. So we should treat others the way we want to be treated.

This is often known as the “Golden Rule”.

Golden Rule
Love is the core thought that weaves through all his teachings. He says this at the end of his Sermon. Matt 7:12 Treat other the way you want to be treated. For this sums up all the Laws and Prophets

When look carefully at this verse we notice something important. Treating people the way you want to be treated (in a loving manner) says nothing about how they treat you back. It is not a quid pro quo. It is not about treating them the way they treat me. In fact it really has nothing to do with them. It is about how I respond to the situation. What I do. It means I pray for those who hurt me. It means I put their feeling and well being before my own

Later when asked about what was the greatest command Jesus answered in Mark 12:31 Love God with all that you are and love your neighbor as your self. When we love our neighbors in this way we automatically follow this rule.

What is Love?
We know we should love each other but what is love? Paul describes love in 1 Corinthians 13…

If I speak human or angelic languages
but do not have love,
I am a sounding gong or a clanging cymbal.
2 If I have the gift of prophecy
and understand all mysteries
and all knowledge,
and if I have all faith
so that I can move mountains
but do not have love, I am nothing.
3 And if I donate all my goods to feed the poor,
and if I give my body in order to boast[a]
but do not have love, I gain nothing.
Paul wrote this letter to the Corinthian Church because this church was severely fragmented. The members of this church were blessed with many spiritual gifts but they chose to use these gifts to glorify themselves and their pride instead of serving each other and glorifying God.He writes in the first part of this letter that if they do not have love these gifts are worthless. Everything we have and everything we do must come from love.

Paul then tells us what love is…
4 Love is patient, love is kind.
Love does not envy,
is not boastful, is not conceited,
5 does not act improperly,
is not selfish, is not provoked,
and does not keep a record of wrongs.
6 Love finds no joy in unrighteousness
but rejoices in the truth.
7 It bears all things, believes all things,
hopes all things, endures all things.
8 Love never ends.

When we read this passage along with the “Golden Rule;” I have to ask myself: Do I really show love to my neighbor?

I want people to be patient with me. Do I show patience? I want people to be kind. Do I demonstrate kindness? I want people to not hold my mistakes against me. Do I hold grudges?

Daily Reminder
This lesson is something we all know, we have all hear it before, but it is something that we a humans too often forget. We sometimes let the stresses of the day, of our life take over and we twist this truth and we forget. This is one of those teaching I need to read every morning to remind myself. If we do anything maybe we should start our day off each morning with these verses and remind ourselves why we should love

We are all the same
We may have been born to different families, in different countries, in different cities, in different times. But we were all made by God in his image. We are all sinners. We all make mistakes and need forgiveness. We are all on the same team.
God thought we were worth dying for. Not because of anything we did for Him, Not because we deserve it, not because we are good people. He died for us because he loved us. He loved us because we are his. We need to show each other that kind of love–a love that looks out for each other, that takes care of each other. We are all brothers and sisters, one family in God’s eyes.